Adrian White

I went to church from the age of about 5 upwards. I left the church at the age of 12 ish. The reason that I left was because I was being bullied at the church as well as at school by the same people. After I left I carried on as every one does day by day. I moved areas from Leicester to Mountsorrel about 2 years after I left the church. I went to Humphrey Perkins which was a chance to get away from the bullying as well as a chance for me to change as I wanted to get rid of my temper. I tried to do this but as it happened I was bullied again at this school.

Near the end of the year that I was there I went out with someone the year below me. We started going out and we had a few problems as all relationships do. We eventually ended the relationship after 3 years. At this point I didn’t really need it as I was having health problems as well as family problems. The health problem that I had was an eating disorder. I only realised this as I was speaking to my friend when I realised as I was throwing up as well as I went down to under 9 stone. This meant that I was not up to my full fitness. I carried on and thought that it would sort it self out as I carried on it didn’t.

Not long after this had happened I went through a lot within my personal life as well as my family life. I couldn’t stand it any longer so I thought the only way out was to try and kill myself. So I left a note at home and went off to the hills I was determined to do it. I went up there making sure no one could contact me as I thought I left my mobile at home. I was about to step off when my phone rang, I found it in my back pocket. I answered it and it was my ex-girlfriend. She asked were I was and I told her. She spoke to me on the phone and got to me as I was speaking to her. She got me away from the edge and we went home.

I went to murder mystery parties this must have been about a week to 2 weeks after I had tried to kill myself. I was still not myself. I went and took the people home and Hayley said to me just before she got out of the car if you need to speak to anyone then just give her a call. I didn’t do it as me being me thought that I could do it my own way. About a week after that I was still having problems at home and my eating disorder. The family problems got a bit worse, people were ill and we had some deaths in the family. I could not handle it anymore so l tried to kill myself for the second time. Again l went to the hills and again l tried to step off. I left the note at home and l took my phone with me - it was on low battery. I just got up to the hills and my phone died. I sat up there for about 30 minutes and thought of everything that l had done. I was so determined to do it that I stepped up to the edge and my phone rang. My phone was dead and I got a call, it was HayIey, she asked where I was and I told her and we had a conversation for about 3 hours. I walked away from the edge and I walked back home. I tried to make a call to my ex-girlfriend and I couldn’t as my phone was dead. Not long after ¬that I asked if I could talk to her. I then spoke to her for a long time she invited me to a puppet show at Mountsorrel Baptist.

Not long after this I went through a real hard time as I was struggling with eating and family problems were not being sorted. I tried again to kill myself for a 3rd time. I left a note again and made sure that I left the phone at home. This time I was really determined I was about to step off but just before I did that I looked around at all the entrances that I could see. I had a foot and a half to go before I stepped off. As I looked at the last entrance I looked back to the edge and there was some one there. I was shocked about this person being there. I was so determined I was in tears. I asked the person who are you and he said you don’t need to know who I am but I know who you are as well as I know what you are about to do. He spoke to me and he calmed me down within about 3 or 4 minutes. He sat down next to me and spoke to me about what I was about to do and what would happen if I did this he also spoke to me about God and Jesus as well as everything that Jesus could do for me. He also spoke to me about everything. He walked with me down to the green where I got on a bus and went back home. I have never seen this person again I have tried to find out who they are but I just cant find them.

I have had some amazing times since then, going to Spring harvest as well as going to CAH. This was another memorable time as this is once I did activities on the first day. l fell over a trailer and banged my leg, went to hospital but no doctor so got told to rest. I did that and woke up the next day. I went down for breakfast and my duties and then went for QT groups. 20 minutes into QT groups I got a pain in my chest and thought nothing of it. Came to the end of QT groups and tried to sit up. I couldn’t as I was in so much pain. They called an ambulance and I got rushed off to hospital with a suspected PE. I was scanned and I had 3 ECG’s they also had me on oxygen as well as other drugs They released me later and had to make my way from Carlisle back to Keswjck We prayed that we wanted to get back and every bus was there on time and we got a lift back from Keswick back to the manor.

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